Blog? I guess this is a blog.

Quote of the post - "Blogging - Never before have so many people with so little to say said so much to so few." (he,he)

I don't think I have actually had a blog, if we must call it that, for a very long time. I was inspired to start one up again when I was over looking some of my posts on xanga, from years ago! I miss the times where I just sat down and wrote what was on my heart and on my mind. So I guess that brings up the question, whats on my mind, or heart, now? Well God has been moving in Patrick and I a lot recently. We think that God may be calling us to Kansas City, MO so Patrick can go to music school and start to move forward into what God has called him to do. So for me this is very exciting, but at the same time very scary. It's been so neat to sit back and watch as the Lord speaks into my husband. As I look at Patrick and see where he was, and who he was, to see where he is now, and to the man God has made him to be, is just amazing! I'm so proud of him and so proud to be called his wife! So as I can see that the Lord is calling him to a new and higher place, this calls me to a higher place of faith. Patrick will leave his job, we will leave all our friends and family, and walk into an unfamiliar town with complete trust that this is what God has for us in this season. *sigh* Not going to lie, this scares me a ton! But I trust that no matter whats going on in my life, and no matter how grim things may look, that God always has me in the palm of his hand, and he will always take care of me. For I was made to love God, I was made for his companionship, and his heart is for me.

Besides the possible move, I continue to deal with the, what seems to be, regular issues. Such as, learning how to be a good housewife, and learning how to serve my husband, since this is what I am called to as his wife! I continue to deal with trusting that the Lord called me to start my photography business, and that it is a talent from him and he will bless me as long as I do his will. And of course the never ending battle of when we will have children. I feel like God and I argue about this almost every month! ha,ha! It seems that no matter how many times God reassures me that children is a promise he made to me, every time I get my cycle, I become disappointed and lose faith in his promise. But after a while that faith comes back, and God gives me a word, or dream or vision to bring that promise back to life in me, and in Patrick. We know that his timing is best, but it's hard to care about his timing when your desire is so strong! In the midst of the tears, disappointment and pain, God is still faithful and he keeps his promises! I know this first hand!

My thoughts have run out for now, but I'll be back soon with many more I'm sure! :)